They say there are so proud of me and what ive over come So proud that I didn't give in to all the nasty things they've done They wish they could be like me and cope they way I cope They say they look to me and I give them hope And that brings me so much pain,its too much for me too hold Because I ...Read more

How am I expected to build a home When my home was never home How can i even love you right, if love ive never known How can I make you smile when my smiles were just a mask How can I make you happy when im still stuck in the past How can we move forward when forward seems so far Please dont leave...Read more

the darkness fills I swallow these pills and they take away the pain But no amount of pills could kill these feelings I feel I think they call it shame I'm drowning now, the mask has fell down Time starts to run out And as it runs The silence begins to shout The ceiling stares back, cold and bare Li...Read more

You're just a man, i tell myself,just a man. So why am i dying to hold you're hand NO you'r just a man. You're no different from the rest but how your hands,your eyes ,your words are putting me to the test You're just a man, vile and rude But how your presence alone can lift my mood You're just a ...Read more

Perfection does not exist, for it is an ideological myth Perfection is seen as a goal. We strive to meet a goal that we seek I never believed in this chaotic fight for perfection, but I was yet to have met. him Perfection in all its glory But perfection does not exist, right? Yet they continue to m...Read more

Do u want to know the hardest part of getting clean It's the shame and guilt and apologies I miss the numbness, but I miss me too, So I stay right here and see this thing through The first time since 13, im taking a step back Being high is hard, but being sober, i crack 3 weeks, in my room,I hide f...Read more

I broke in ways they couldn’t see, But every crack made room for me Im finally safe, ive made my home But memories flood when im alone Memories i wish I could forget Fear,sadness,hurt and regret The childhood I once wished to remember Im trying to hide and bury more than ever Im scared to know w...Read more

You don’t need to rush your healing, or prove how strong you’ve grown. Some lessons only whisper when you finally sit alone. You’ve loved with open hands before, even when it hurt to try. That doesn’t make you foolish it means your heart is alive. Not everything that broke you was meant to stay ...Read more

I don’t forget the nights I cried or words that cut too deep, I don’t ignore the promises you couldn’t always keep. But growth is loud in silence, in choices no one sees, And you’re finally choosing effort over those empty pleas. Love is always hard but ive loved you since 14 I look at old couples a...Read more

Happy birthday to me I'm finally 19 I got wish from my ex And the guy who tried his best A wish from my nan Who is my biggest fan A wish from my mate Though she forgot and was late A wish from my homies Who barely even knows me No wish from my mum,no wish from my dad No happy birthday's for ...Read more

It has my soul,and it has my mind I use this substance to pass the time I say im fine . say I can stop But i need to have more and get to the top Im taking it as a challenge to see how far I can go To push my mind and swim through snow My friends do it,and their friends do too No matter where I go...Read more

I’m healing the parts he tore apart, Piecing together my broken heart. The shouting, the guilt, the twisted blame, I lost myself trying to ease his shame He said he'd change, that he'd try to be better, But promises fade like the ink on a letter....Read more

I wanted to be his help, be his support. Be his world even when the rest of it abandoned him Even if it meant abandoning myself. Even if the world clearly abandoned him for a reason. In all fairness, I've always been a sucker for this one quote….. “One man's trash is another man's treasure” or how...Read more

The last time I slept with him, I knew it wasn't about love any longer. It was about holding on to the scraps of a boy who had already let go. I hated myself for it, but I couldn't stop......Not yet. I kept telling myself that if I stayed close enough, long enough, he might remember the way he used...Read more

I hate you, i know we always say that's a strong word But i can't shake the feeling. it's really absurd I hate how you're gorgeous, and I admired your eyes I hate that they were deceiving and filled with lies I hate how your embrace would make the world go silent I hate how I threw up my hands a...Read more