But these are only dreams, I will never get love. Scars are just reminders; I’ll never quite forget. Of how small I felt and how u made me upset I wonder if you’re sorry, if you wish to take it back. It’s what I tell myself to keep from crawling back. I never wanted to leave I just wanted to see you care. I looked over my shoulder, no point, you weren’t there? It’s something I’m used to; or I thought I would be. 1000 people I could be for you, but none would be me. I look into the mirror finally happy with what I see. Why couldn’t you just love me for who I am…. me? But fuck you I hate you; I’m never coming back. Ill say this till I’m dead, while there’s tears I still hold back. Not tears for you because that’s more than you deserve. But tears for younger me who you threw to the curb. So, fuck you again, I hope you hate your life. I will take this hate to fuel my success, and I hope u see me thrive. I hope in another lifetime you are not my mum. To save you from my burden and having to learn how to love I hope in another lifetime you are unable to have kids. So, I don’t have to spend years healing and struggling to live. A lot of this isn’t who I am it’s just how I’ve felt. These are nothing but old memories like the pictures on the shelf.