It has my soul,and it has my mind I use this substance to pass the time I say im fine . say I can stop But i need to have more and get to the top Im taking it as a challenge to see how far I can go To push my mind and swim through snow My friends do it,and their friends do too No matter where I go im,set to lose I think of the innocence the word "drugs" use to hold Im nothing and noone ,the drug keeps me whole My bestfriend is worried ive gone to far If im not on the bags im on the bar Enjoying the night-life, enjoying my youth Take and take to avoid the truth Im gonna quit soon ,time to progress But really im lying, my life is a mess I miss my home and the feeling of contempt Now I am lost and nothing makes sense My mind is empty and my nose is full I thought this was a phase but now im just a fool Just one more weekend ,just one more time The more i take the more i see signs Signs of a pattern,we've been here before Reminders of my parents, we aren't so different anymore Youre either the abuser or the abused but that is far from true I am the master of both so what can I do I learned from the best and then learnt some more A night out means nothing unless you end up on the floor One day,I'll be old ,nd these memories will seem far So for now I am fighting to not break apart To fake it till I make it and take once again Noone sees im falling, I have no real friends My heart is quite heavy ,Im going to implode As soon as I get home im taking one last blow Ill close my eyes and look up to the roof Please be the last time,I have nothing left to lose No family ,no friends, there will be no split ends It was tomorrow was the last. I be happy for the end No more lies ,I wouldn't have to pretend That im fine, im happy,not falling agai