Since I was 9 years old, I changed since bc I was s,h,a,r sexaly harassed and raped I was used against my will could not move or make noise forced to do things I didn't agree to I changed I'm self conscious I hate making friends aways alone never with people and never tell people how I feel I run and hide away when it gets bad I used to feel petty back then but now I feel differently in my self my thoughts make me feel different thing about myself even Lil comment affected me like lose weight and stuff it hurt I never vented until it gets to hard ro handle and that been hard this month and last month I feel horrible and idk if me and my bf are going to last either ges seeing a side he's never seen before I love him to death we bdn together for a month and almost two weeks hes amazing but not like perfect bc love it's not perfect this world is not perfect I'm not perfect I changed people chsnge the world changes everything changes now people think of me as a self person bc I never want to do anything or be around people I don't know i feel like shit and I can't do anything about it my grandma has cancer my second kinda father figure has heart problems and my friend fucking killed herself I'm so fed up in this world I hate it when people joke about things bc I been thought shit I can even say anything to people bc they will say it's ok but it's never fucking ok anymore