My mind is running every day every night thinking over and over, listening and listening I shall do, my mind it's like a song but dead, dead like my silence, thinking do they hate us, what if I say something bad, but no thats what you think but, it's running on repeat kill yourself over and over again, they don't like you, why are you still standing there like a fucking werido, frozen like ice cant move blood runs cold, stuck in place, feeling dizzy from not eating and not drinking in days falling forward, passing out, getting back up. And walking away Like nothing happened, walking into the bathroom looking in the mirror and punching it like what the fuck is wrong with me looking down at my bloody hand, staring like I can't feel a thing, nothing hurts my body is all numb and fizzy wiping the blood on my pants and just goes back to the others looking dead Like nothing happened. My head running on repeat still what the fuck is wrong with you, they don't like you, your ugly, your worthless, there just faking being your friend, kill yourself. Selfish, your a whore, fuck you , failure, just end it already, staring at the wall letting my thoughts win grabbing a glass of the mirror and leaving the house and going home going to my bedroom room crying locking the door and cutting and burning until bleeding, to death body aching in pain but don't feel it bodys numb and fizzy from the pain.