I’ve been broken so long I don’t know how to cope Voices in my head they tell me to stay home Reminisce and fantasize until my heart cries. I’m overdue for my bedtime, haven't slept since I was 9. Spirit awakens all the time Feel like I’m losing my mind I'm losing grip with reality Somebody smack it outta me Put me out my misery I'm feelin ill mentally Tryna make a difference But my mind is the enemy All my fam dead to me That blood is like poison The way it hurts me And the apple ain't fall far from the tree Cause I wasn't meant to be An apple at all, I'm meant to stand tall All on my own No branch to fall from But then I got tangled in An endless web His branches mixed with yours And out poured me. An apple as little as can be. And who knew, This would be the result of my wishing. Soul devotion All emotion focused On one thing Learning how to be a better me But still I falter Fuck around and go to far Then I'm lost to the worlds darkest heart. Wondering how long I've got Before it all collapses`-