Im emerced, It smothers me, Weighs me down. I can't get up .....do i even want to I can't talk .....do i even want to It disorientates how i think, How i feel. Im drowning in the silence, Yet simultaneously drowning in the raging commotion in my head. Too quiet that it worries me, as if its taunting me. Too loud it's umbareable. Unable to think straight. I can't win, I never will. All i have is a sharp pain to ease my mind and body, Even that i sit and regret. That false sense of re-emerging from this pool of misery and despair, Only for it to drag me deeper and deeper each time. Im a fool. I should stay submerged, It's all i know, It's what i deserve, It's where i belong.