I hate you I never knew I'd ever say that But I hate you I hate the way you blamed me Telling me I deserved nothing I carved into my skin because I thought I deserved it Deserving all the pain it brings Letting all the cries in me sing I hate to say I believed you.. I believed you when you said I'm ugly Made me wanna change myself When all I wanted was for you to hug me And tell me you loved me What was I thinking? You told me I cry to much It was your fault You could never keep in touch And talk to me like a normal person I took in all the abuse, drowning myself in it Not being able to picture myself without you Even when you could never admit When I was here ready to commit to you Telling you "I'm ready" I hate you I hate you All your words blowing me up into flames Hearing your words say I'll always be the same Cause you couldn't believe I changed Why? Just why