I wanna know why I did that I wanna know why I didn't look back I wanted to know why you left, What was on your mind, your heart and your chest. I wanna know why you didn't answer my calls or my text, then act like it's fine. I just wanted to know what would happen if I looked back, if I made that choice what would have happened. Would it still end up the same, would it still be up for me to be the blame. Could it make you grow accountability? Some responsibility for you to take. Even at the age I'm not even close to. It hurts to know your older and I act More mature than you. It hurts to know I gotta let you go, even when you weren't holding on. It hurts to know I still gotta see your face the one I still adore, you would know this, but you haven't noticed from afar. Where I watch you to see if you watch me, like how you Used to. Then I would be more happy but I got more peace from ur absence. Then you're presence I swear I loved it. But- baby girl between me and you I suffered. I don't wanna hold on no more, I wish I could keep you here forever but I can't. God knows this, and you know it. I can't take the feeling anymore, the scar in my heart from your presence. The hole was filled with your absence, there and I can sense it. And I pray you find love I don't want anything bad to happen to u. The devil couldn't reach me I swear, so he sent me you.