God, why? Were you removing me from their life? Were you removing them from mine? Was I the problem? Was it both of us? Why am I left with this pain and frustration that never seems to go away. Can you hear me? Are you there? You're angry at them, but you loved them, but you're mad that they're gone. So you're stuck. You know better than to retaliate. It'll only hurt you more in the end, And it won't bring them back. But most of all, their absence is killing you. You want to fight back. To say something. To get even. But at the end of the day, you wish. You wish they were still here. And so you're stuck. It makes you wanna smash a brick into the wall, doesn't it? Left to just sit in silence, with the weight of it. Humanity is such a blessing, but also a curse. At least, it feels like it at times. Things can be going good. And then life comes crashing down on you. And next thing ya know, you're at the lowest you've ever been. But you keep going. It sucks. But you deal with it, like everyone else. If this is what you would call dealing with it. Losing friends, sucks. Breakups, suck. But there's more to life than just loss. Of course, some people are always gonna have it worse. At least I'm not off fighting in some war with my whole family dead. But, that also doesn't mean my feelings aren't important, yk? And yours matter too. Everyone is fighting their own battles you don't see. So to whoever is reading this today, I hope whatever you're silently struggling with gets easier. I hope, the part of you that you're scared to show others heals. That the battles you don't tell anyone about, I hope you have victory over. And remember, your mistakes don't define who you are as a person. I love yall. ❤️