I want to write again I miss how I liked the rain I want to scream unbroken Sleep until my eyes won't open The agony in me seems permanent Grievous sigh, needs to vent Couldn't even finish a book Couldn't even find its hook Lost in the midst of wilderness Found in the filthy pit, restless Admired the glory of life Got back into a losing fight Almost dared to end my counting days Mourned as I pray to the highness Please tuck away the torment in me So I could die peacefully