You have no idea, do you? How much it hurts to plaster a smile on my face Every hour, day and night. You have no idea, do you? How pain laughing could be when your seat beside me is empty. When I have to journey alone without the comfort of your grasp. You have no idea, do you? How little crying can numb the pain in my heart. Every time it dulls, a reminder of you pierces even deeper. I can’t tell you how long I have left the open wound bleeding. You have no idea, do you? How many times I tried comforting myself that there were more fish in the sea? That losing you shouldn’t hurt this bad. How many times I thought I crossed the mental barrier but once I caught glimpse of you threw me back spiralling. You have no idea, do you? How I walk past your classroom everyday pretending to look for my friends but it was just a coverup to feed my heart’s desire to see you again. For my heart to yearn for you again but pull back at the last second knowing that losing you was irreversible. You really have no idea, do you? How much I missed you. How much I need you back in my life. How much I love you… How would you have any idea anyways…