You ask me how I'm feeling I say I'm fine But that's not what I'm feeling on the inside You pass by me thinking none the less But inside my head it's an absolute mess You look at me and think he's a happy guy But in my head I'm terrible and I wanna die I want you to see my mask my smiling face But in my head a dark and depressing place Everyday more pain fuels the raging fire But no one knows my situation is dire I think of ways to end this pain But decide to live on with nothing to gain I'm in this rabbit hole I put myself in And I keep telling myself you'll never win My happiness never seems to last Before I know I'm in the hole falling fast In my head thoughts are set in stone I dig my self deeper im here all alone Every month the cycle is a struggle I try things to make me happy but help is subtle I look to friends, and family too But find myself thinking they don't want you I have trouble sleeping through the night Cause in my head its a battle, a hard fight I always want help but don't want to ask I find that is the most difficult task