I have spent years. You suddenly went cold, Whats the reason? Is this your new season? I was sad, You grew up to be so bad- You said you wanted to be like your dad? , Suddenly you liked girls- With little curls, That also wear pearls ... Which i find is weird, My hair was always straight Maybe its just fate, I was too late .. I wrote In secret, Nobody even knew- Or had any clue About my view, Of how i see you I wasnt cold, Not even when we met I just had to be bold I was told, As a kid Any emotion, Was a very bad promotion I didnt smile at you that day Not because i wanted you away But because i didnt think youd stay In every way- That i play, People seem to go away I just want to feel Something, so i dont have to kneel I always appear- Hard as steal But i just want somebody real, Not somebody that can heal, Not someone ideal ... This really hurt, I was tossed as a shirt, Never a good dessert To many, just dirt I sometimes just stare, Even though i cant bare To me you were rare, But i suppress my care, Never again to share I wont even dare