Trying so hard to see things the way they are but I can't cause my mind is far I want to understand but can I do that on command every situation becomes stressful while I try to keep it peaceful but yet my mind is still full.how can I be sure they say I need cure, but I just keep wanting more.more of what? exactly the point I don't know what I want I'm just a child , I want to hide away from all the drama but I can't I'm now a part of the scandal. I want out but it's already to late and there might soon be no escape.dificult it's been called but yet I feel at fault I want to scream, shout and yell I urgently need someone to tell how I'm stressed as hell but maybe it's my fault maybe I'm not just cut out for it just yet but everything plays out like a drama on set , now it all makes sense I'm the difficult one not them , they only try to help but I push away cause I don't know what to say or how to say it and when to say it , it's difficult.