Sometime I try to hide it,I still fight it cause I can't stand it. I try to pretend it doesn't exist I hide every evidence that speaks of it , I'm in deep pain that encloses within smiles, my heart aches to a point my chest physically hurts. I stay up all night with a lot in my head causing me to be restless in bed . I can't seem to understand why it doesn't go away and why it still chooses to stay, filling my mind with so much it cannot hold causing my bones to grow weak and cold, awakening every bit of fear that my dying heart cannot bare . I'm broken and need fixing I admit I'm battered and recked I can see, I cry out but no one hears, a lot in me I need to share I'm drowning in my dispair . I just want to be free , I just want to be free but each time I look back the only barrier between I and freedom is me.