What does happiness feel like? ‎Is it simply smiling and laughing? ‎I don't know how it feels, I lost it. ‎ ‎What does sadness feel like? ‎I lost the ability to cry. ‎I don't know how it feels, I lost it. ‎ ‎What does loving feel like? ‎My heart stops beating. ‎I don't know how it feels, I lost it. ‎ ‎I search every corner of myself, ‎I look for every emotion left, ‎I dig deep into my heart– only to find nothing. ‎What does it mean to keep going? ‎ ‎I tried to smile, to laugh but it's all a dry facade. ‎ ‎Don't look into my eyes–it's a deep water well of vanity. ‎ ‎Don't ask for love for my heart forgot the rhythm of affection. ‎ ‎I lost myself in nothingness, ‎I forgot the way back, I guess. ‎The fog is getting heavy, ‎and it's eating me lively. ‎ ‎I am a ruin, a broken one, it's hard to reshape me and get back. ‎I am as good as dead as I forgot everything including myself. ‎ ‎Let me just hold a memory, a history, that made me once a whole one. ‎ ‎