I bring you diamonds. I bring you gold I bring you all the jewels Like it's a ritual Never enough Not shiny enough Not big enough Not vibrant enough Toxic shine You dulled my light Every time I sat down You showed me I shouldn’t sit down I started to crack I started to break No more punishment Just nourishment I started to feed myself I started to nourish my soul I started to glow I started to show U hated that U hated my shine U hated my color — it was all shades of gold U hated my glow Because I wasn't putting on a show Words got sharp Sharp like the Gems found You started to cut I started to bleed U started to scream U started to scheme Poisoning my blood stream I just want to leave but your words have poisoned me It clicks — Phoenix, I was always fire, raised from ashes. But still stuck in a cage. The cage became my comfort, my belonging, my wrong kind of home. I know I don't belong I just don't know how to go.