The past haunts me like a fucking ghost I try hard but it's never the most I can't change I don't know how I just rearrange my ups and downs My scars bleed they never heal The demon inside that I try to kill laughs at my attempt to heal I wish my own flesh I could peel I smile sometimes but it's just for show The pain inside has nowhere to go yeah I'm dead inside I haunt myself My broken pride is put up on the shelf I repeat the mistakes that i know Yeah I smile sometimes but just for show The future is bleak and fading fast I trip trying to run from my past My head is loud again today as my thoughts come out to play They tell me to destroy myself I fucking hate my mental health I wish I could just end it all I wish I had the guts to take that fall I smile sometimes but it's just for show The pain inside has nowhere to go yeah I'm dead inside I haunt myself My broken pride is put up on the shelf I repeat the mistakes that i know Yeah I smile sometimes but just for show Broken beat ruined and trash My grip on life is fading fast I can't keep doing this shit everyday I should just let the demon out to play Give in to his every whim And fuck my life up all over again Just let me fade away to black Once I'm gone I won't ever be back I smile sometimes but it's just for show The pain inside has nowhere to go yeah I'm dead inside I haunt myself My broken pride is put up on the shelf I repeat the mistakes that i know Yeah I smile sometimes but just for show