A year, I have not had a relationship this long, Why? What's different this time? Communication failure; It's hard to build a relationship, When there is no talking between you, When one is emotionally unhealthy, Overwhelmed by the thoughts inside their head, The other one is emotionally unavailable, Not enough of a care to talk about what's going on, But you… “I remember you saying how-” That was almost ten years ago, But you still had to ask, Didn't see each other for months, The next time I saw you I received a letter, With all the things you wanted to say, Now we have our notebooks, Which we pass to the other when we see each other again. Filling the void; You don't love them, The term “relationship” in this case- Just hiring someone to love you, Because you don't love you, Its hard to love someone, Show them love, If you can't love yourself, But when we started talking more frequently again, I was happy, Content, I was ok, Even though I was by myself, So when you showed me that you loved me, You aren't making up for what's missing, You showed me what real love is, And I was not needing anything from you, It's a bonus- Extra love, And made it so I COULD love you. Speeding into things; I like you, I like you, too let's date! No. As in did we think it through, No. Were we emotionally stable, No. Did it last, NO! But this time, I prayed about it, I realized that I was ready, There were no issues in my mental health, But I wanted to know if He was ok with it. I got that it was ok for me to tell you, But I told your brother, Knowing he would tell you, Two weeks later you told me you knew, The week after that you told me you liked me too, You told me you also prayed about it, We didn't rush into things. (Pt. 2 on profile to long)