not in the aspect of own financial stability nor how I do several kinds of charity but how I can make sure that love from that specific someone will be there in the future —for me I know how funny it is, to ask this question. I know the answer, but, there's nothing wrong in hope talking, I guess? yet, as truth speaks, there is. "Because what is in your mind is where you spend your time, that shapes your life and draws on your face either a smile or tears in your eyes." ... Saying these words right now, should I admire myself and let my head bow? because I prove that my brain is not as size of a cow's? ... oh yes... admire me, not. ... I still choose to be here To ask a question that is "stupid" in somebody's opinion So there's nothing to be admire other than my persistence to desire someone's love in that specific time called "future life".