in trying to win your love, I lost myself… And now… I can't even trace where I went. I wanted to believe what you said... but now it's too late. Too late to hold — and yet your absence still clings like shackles on my soul. Was I bonding with your trauma or bonding with you? Couldn't help but think bout you I won't chase you, but I won't hate you. I'm left holding the pieces — exhausted, punished, twisted in the brain, for loving you completely — like the sin upon me for some unholy thing. I kept hoping... maybe dreaming. Maybe I was just fooled. But you never even refused you let it all play out, Till you didn’t And yet, you never hesitated to disappear — you vanished the same. like time forgot me… but you did first. You let me sink and be forgotten, half-buried in your presence. Said it's just independence. Then you left — like I was meant to be discarded. Just a nameless stone, bruised all over. And what hurts most? I kept hoping you'd remember the version of me you once made me believe you wanted. I was bonding with your trauma — never really with you. Now I see it through and through. I won't chase you, and I no longer wait for you. Maybe I was never yours to keep… Just a theme that played when I pulled you into my sleep. I gave you my breath… my life… all in your name. But you mistook it as merely a phrase. Still… I won't blame you. But I also -will not stay. Won't give you my name… or carry my pain your way. So here is the truth, never meant to hide… I love you, willing to be by your side But this is also the truth… Your heart may never stand before mine. And in mine — you were never meant to reside, not even as a sign."