I shouldn't be feeling this way It's not like me to be afraid I'm never afraid But in the blink of an eye Everything comes crashing down And suddenly Everything is dark, i dont like the dark Its filled with memories i dont wanna remember Thoughts that i cant block out Monsters that haunt me Its a loop im stuck in There's a door, but no key A reality but no escape The only time there's light Is when im surrounded by those who care But even they can't keep the dark away The nightmares begin, and the cycle starts. Wake up, go to sleep There no time for anything else Wake up, go to sleep Don't eat, it's not worth it Wake up, go to sleep Don't say a word, no one listening That's the cycle It repeats, over and over and over It never ends, even in the light It stays in the back of my mind Taunting me, telling me "They don't care, hide it, mask it, pretend" I smile through it all cause what the point What would they do? Nothing. Cause they cant, they dont know. Im good at hiding it They'll never know, cause i wont tell them Not cause im scared Cause what would they do? Tell me i need therapy Tell me i need to talk to someone Or tell me "its gonna be okay" Even though it won't be The cycle doesn't end 6 years, and it keeps repeating itself It never ends No matter how much i want it to