Is this the end...?! I remember the trip back home..the silence in the car the side eyes, you keeping tabs to see if I had caught on... The dread hung so low it was suffocating... The drugs couldn't help your case... The closer we got back to our normal lives, the heavier my heart felt... t minus 45mins and all I could do was try not to cry... And then those words escaped your lips... Was I not that important to you..?! Not that loud but maybe the last time it slipped your lips.. 'I can't claim you publicly'... 'I've got a lot to lose' My heart shattered more than I could even explain.. I just smiled but back in the silence of 'mines'-as you called it.. I tried not to cry, blaming myself for believing that what we had the past 3yrs meant something solid...