"what is your biggest fear" I pause, Do I really want to reveal The deepest parts of myself? "Spiders" Its safer to say that. They move on to the next question And I'm left behind Pondering the real answer The one that makes my chest hurt Just thinking about. "I am really scared of spiders" "They make me want to scream" This isn't a lie. Spiders are scary But not as terrifying As the worries that cross my mind Preventing me from falling asleep. Not as scary As the possibility that one day Nothing will change, that I will not grow. Or worse That I will end up alone because I never changed. My biggest fear is not those creepy 8 legged creatures staring back at me It is the possibility of a future Where my voice still shakes When talking to new people Or where my hands shake as I give a presentation. A future where I am still too scared to express myself In any way. My biggest fear is not the dumb little bug That is more scared of me than I am of it But it's the future Where I end up Too scared to live The future where I die With nothing to be proud of. My biggest fear Is that I will live in fear.