Just for today audience once more I must write I must freely express these thoughts that take flight There once was a time when I felt I must fight There once was a sickness I fought every night Never in truth Have I ever felt free Always some purpose With a spell upon me The guilt and the shame My victims plea The darkness the darkness Oh the darkness is me The monster that claws At the walls in my head The monster that seeks The world to be dead The beast deep inside Your fear and your dread The monster of history I can't put to bed With regret and sadness I'm a slave to my pen To the creative process And the sexual sin They're always tearing and ripping They always win Even as I swear to myself Never not ever never again What darkness what madness Has overcome To be a monster A poet to some To horrible fantasies I come and I come The conscience within me Has long since gone numb My lover my compatriot My subordinate friend The person who seems Has some Spirit to lend I do what I may It may never end While she's screaming my name hear her voice on the wind Echo sweet echo Whisper sweet sigh Please love me now And never ask why