Deafening sounds that I used to drown, All the memories I had once frowned. It's like a faded distance that feels resistant, Consistent and persistent.. It was pestering me like no one was listening. Eating away at my insides and picking me apart, Always seeming lost so where do I start? Thinking back when my life was wack Shit was vindictive with love that I'd lack. Who am I? Or where do I go? The shit that I've seen if only you'd known. Thinking back again with the fact.. It was rough and left a harsh impact. On who I am today but "I am okay", It's something I learned eventually to say. Fully fearing how I'm feeling, Not to be showing or seem demeaning. My emotions are swelling and it's you that I'm telling, How I feel for once is extremely compelling. It's hard to open up myself truly, I've done it more than once and the results are unruly. So much that I bare I'll tell you if you care, But please for me.. even silently just be there. Don't fade like those notes in a song, Because expressing myself shouldn't feel wrong. ... Drifting slightly and disconnecting, Affiliate love, I'll say next to nothing.. Just know that It's my heart I'm protecting.