The more days I open my eyes The more death is closer to me. Death is unpredictable, it can be way closer than you'll ever realize. Death can also be mentally, you could escape death till you're 80yrs old but it doesn't matter since a part of you already died at 15. Death went for your soul and happiness instead of your body. Death is tricky. Grief is even tricker as it destroys the conception of time. You could grieve someone for decades without realising time has passed.