Almost decided to let the ocean consume me – trusting that you'd be there – even in my submerged form – trusting you'd pull me out For you are the first of many – the first that let me believe i could let loose – the first that almost convinced me that i deserved someone like you You who always looked so caringly to me You who noticed that i wasn't okay You who could read my soul through my gaze You will forever be my first and last – the last that i almost opened up to – the last i felt safe with Forever my last For i will be drifting in my ocean of thoughts Letting the crashing waves caress my skin Letting the bitter cold leave goosebumps in its wake Back to how i was before you stepped in my book My first tide. My last shore. The only hand I almost trusted above the waves