Beauty is karma as a canvas that lay beside me. Heaven to the aching softness that I never get to feel. But see it daily. Friend or just lovesick escape? Every time and every almost night. Midnight becomes a friend just to make you more vivid to me. And this song disassociate is at exactly how I feel about everything when I see you again and again except for you. I would never leave you. Even if not I'm lost wandering again in another dream. Cuz this aching flutter isn't ever complete till it's just you and me. To know you're like oxygen to me. Writing about you cuz my subconscious is stubborn and tragically don't choose to think without thinking about nothing but you. To oblivious cuz my eye only adore someone who genuinely understands without speaking and without a touch. Cuz to almost everyone I'm just too much. I don't believe in the one. Highschool sweethearts. Go to church you'll find someone. Just another excuse for judgement bullshit. I only know to feel immensely. That a vibe is genuine and almost too sacred but you touch or whisper to it with fragileness. You cradle it like the angel that you see nothing wrong. I'm always thinking about gar and Rachel Alice and Leo stiles and Lydia kira and Scott Ramona and Scott. Cuz she's too vivid to not know the bittersweet drift. Then there's eliose bridgerton and Penelope featheryton the girls who are hauntedly striking but always ignored but only the quiet sees them. Then I go to Cloak and dagger like it's the circle that makes me so abstractly unique. Everyone wishes for silence. Wants a spotlight only to steal a beings breath. Yet this is the unraveling bittersweet masterpiece that only comes in my sleep. Just to haunt me blissfully. Cuz sleep knows if I could I would never leave.