I don't know exact times or dates, I do not know your heart's mind. But if you had bore a child in place of a resentment. I think it would be at the age to stand up and speak by now. They would have developed a head then a spine, and then, they would have used them. To scream, to stand, to cry and to speak many words when the time came. But your resentments never grew a spine. Nor did they ever learn words. You so desperately wanted me to nurture and hold them. But they were not a child. And now, neither are you.