It's pouring. Rain idly a grey Kia window pane. Suddenly a flutter of her heart couldn't be more irresistible. And her name was Sarah. A Ginger with glasses fair skinned beauty made like a canvas. Which I did not know heaven yet? But I would learn. Young blood just to want yet need the undying touch of fever. That never felt the same. Sweet perfume like a drug. And I burned the same. A addict to such soft figures. To know curves suddenly had a shape and a name. Puppy love crawling like spider to me again. The way I felt when raspiness that was bittersweet to my ears again and again. The rain suddenly had no sound. Blush Red. As felt heat beyond understanding again. Nerves like TNT. A crush. Yes. A crush. As I told her how I felt. A different time. A different frame. A ache of her in dreams I saw again and again. To know comprehend ages agony again and again. To know euphoria that like another bittersweet excuse to love. When I know how but want. As lively as my blood was. It's the itch and burn for long to know someone the same. To know I never blind this way. But seeing things clearly again and again. Knowing I fell. Just to someone like this bittersweet void. Only she wasn't mine. The sweetness of heaven. That my heart bled to belong to. Nonverbally. I felt her. Knowing I was never supposed to be. But every year since. I knew how Love easily consumed me. And that was never a bad horrid thing. Just different is different. And people fear what they do not understand. Yet I love anyway. Even opacity is the only thing in my hands. Cuz it's bliss of you are there. Somewhere falling. When everyone's else's nothing suddenly becomes everything.