the light in my room is kind of ugly tonight too yellow, like it’s trying too hard it makes everything look older than it is even my hands outside someone laughs like nothing’s wrong like the world isn’t constantly almost something else a car passes, bass shaking the windows and then it’s gone like it was never there i keep thinking i should go do something anything, really but i don’t i just sit here, staring at nothing in particular my phone lights up and then goes dark again no one i actually want to hear from just reminders, updates, things that don’t matter i flip it over like that helps i tell myself i’ll get up in a minute just one more second of this just one more but the seconds don’t really end and neither do i