I touched the fire, now my hands won't heal Bleeding out in silence, but it still feels real I broke myself just to feel something deep But all I found was pain I couldn’t keep Walls are closing, voices scream my name I smile in the mirror, but I’m not the same Flashbacks haunt me in the dead of night I lit the flame, now I fear the light Glass in my veins and scars on my skin Tryna drown demons I keep locked within I made mistakes I can't rewind But does that mean I lose my mind? I wanna live but not like this Craving love but I taste the abyss Tell me it’s not too late to change To find peace in all this pain They say I’m strong, but they don’t see the cracks All the things I wish I could take back Falling into habits just to feel control But they swallow me whole like a black hole My body’s numb, but my thoughts still scream Every night I’m chasing a shattered dream Wrote my worth in blood and cigarette smoke Every laugh now ends in a choke I took one step thinking it'll be the same Now I feel the blood pounding in my veins My heart stopping, my breath hitching I look forward and all I see is black All I feel is fear I want to take it all back And it hurts 'cause I know I can't I'm a monster A beast doomed for hell I really want to end it all Glass in my veins and shame in my soul Drowning in silence, losing control Maybe I’m lost, maybe I’m done Maybe my story’s only begun But if this is it, if I can’t be saved Let these lyrics mark the hurt I made Tell the world I tried to stay But the pain just wouldn’t fade...